Job Searching

I haven't worked outside of my house for about 20 years. And even that was just teaching and helping at a couple of Christian schools. I have never really worked much at all. I have worked in a few nursing homes right after I graduated for one summer. I have worked a place that made copies when I was in college. I have worked at an insurance agency for one year after getting married. I then moved and worked for three months a another insurance agency until I walked out after they lied to me. I worked a temporary job doing data processing.

And then I got pregnant for son #1. Since then, I have worked two years teaching and tutoring at Christian schools, which I loved and enjoyed immensely. Since then, I have worked out of my house, writing articles for various overseas businesses.

Since moving, I have found that I am bored, lonely and poor. Quite a combination, huh? I decided to "try" to get a job on my own, but came up with nothing. So, I ventured to the local employment agency and filled out a whole book of questions. They called me for one potential job at the hospital. It was a full time job, which I really didn't want, but I was desperate. I told them to put my name in. They did, but no calls.

I have been online practically begging someone to hire me to do customer rep work. In fact, I have been trying to get someone ANYONE to take a chance on me, to let me prove that I can do this. What is it about middle-aged (I can't believe I just called myself that!) who have already raised their children who haven't worked in years that scares employers? For crying out loud, I have worked hard for the past 20-25 years raising my family. Could you ask for more dedication and hard work??

And so, I wait. I have decided that maybe I'm not supposed to be working right now, according to the possible will of God in my life. I don't know this, but I do know that He brought us here and so, He's got it all worked out. I do feel disappointed that no one will trust me enough to give me a chance. However, God is bigger than any old employer and He will work it out on my behalf.

He may help me be happy here at home. He may work things out in another way - one that I have not considered. Or, He may work something out yet. I don't know. I just know that I must trust Him to take care of it. And He will.